Human Nature

Forgive me if I come off as a bitch at times, because I try so hard to be mean so as to prevent myself from getting hurt. 

I don't see a reason to trust a guy and begin to like him only to have him rip out my emotions and demolish them like it's nothing...or better yet, have to watch him be with someone else. However, one thing that I have noticed; is that if something is meant to happen, it'll happen and to never instigate anything. 

Most females want that sense of knowing that you are aware that they are alive and trusting you and knowing that you care...but the hardest thing for a person to do is see the one that they like with someone else.

Even though they tell you that they just want to see you happy, inside it hurts so much and breaks them apart because THEY want to be with you..they want to give you everything you need and be that person that you can chill with and fucks with.

An even worse thing is to go into a relationship in order to get over someone else..it ALWAYS ends horribly and you are stuck wanting the other person even more than before. 

It's scary putting your emotions on the line and telling someone how you feel and not know if what they tell you is a line to get you in bed or something that they really feel....so forgive us if we come off a bit insecure, or high maintenance, or self-centered. 

That's us in our comfort zone, that's us afraid to get hurt, that's us not showing a sign of weakness...because at the end of the day, if there's no one to love you but yourself...then you wouldn't want anyone to take that from you too. 

xoxo,

Miss Nwoka